putting together what we know into practice

it speaks to experience, moments lived, lessons learnt, opportunities taken, mistakes made and little wins.

these moments of reckoning are constantly arriving. opportunities. some less subtle than others. like this challenge i’ve recently undertaken to grow the Tropical Spice Garden’s community - Spice Fam. my brainchild, conceived at the early onset of the pandemic, one that primarily got the Garden through its most difficult moment, now in need of new life. a juncture for growth, deeper connections and a wider reach.

a beautiful prospect, a worthwhile endeavour but a scary undertaking. but i know i wouldn’t have accepted the challenge without believing i have what it takes to make it happen - both consciously and subconsciously.

where does this self-doubt stem from? this paralysing fear. a traffic jam of thoughts, unmoving. is it the magnitude of the task? or is it the inaction/lack of inertia? the self-deprecation and sabotage?

i hear my experience saying: 1) yes, it’s a giant task 2) i’m also the best person to take this on, to make it happen. there is also that dominant, habitual voice within that says “chill first”, “give it more thought”, “you have time”, “let it brew”, “if it’s worth doing, it’s worth doing well”.

but perhaps sometimes, if it’s worth doing - it’s worth doing. perhaps it is on the altar of “doing well” that we do nothing at all, stuck in analysis paralysis.

where does that leave us? i believe the choice is ours - let’s not be too late.

[excerpt from diary entry dated 31.1.23]